Hiyha lovely boy been thinking about you again today just like i do everyday. It don't stop me missing you like hell though, if only we could turn back the hands of time. We are all thinking a million "what if,s". What if i hadn't said you couldn't speak to grandad, what if you hadn't gone back to the flat? what if some one had found a way to help you? What if? what if? Its something we will go on thinking until the day we meet you again and hold you in our arms. Do me a favour Ron is really ill and is not going to be with us for long, so will you ask the big man up there to give Ann, lou, Jess and Amy the stregnth to cope. Also to make sure Ron doesn;t suffer cos he don;t dererve any of it. I got to go now lovely boy but i'll be back soon. love and miss you always and forever xxxx