Hiyha lovely boy, been thinking about you a lot lately, bu then i think about you everyday. It will be a year coming up since you left us and it still hurts to know you are not here with us. We will be having a memorial day on the 27th along with some of your true friends we will make it a celebration of your life with us down here. We are going to have a swim and even grandad has said he'll be going in the water. The last time he went in the sea was when he scattered your ashes and he fell in, he still believes it was you that turned the dingy over lol. No-one knows how are coping and i hope they never have to find out. Cos its hard and the world seems a strange and cold place since you left us. Wish we could have got you the help you needed to make sense of your life then perhaps yoou wopuld have still been with us. Mike and Carlyjade are getting married next year and he said he would have wnated you to be his best man, but because he can't ask you he said there will be an empty chair next to his and that will be your seat. Then he will feel you are there by his side. Don't you thing that was such a lovely thing to say?. I wish you could have been here to see the pups they are fab and each one of them has their own personality. I said to grandad i'm sure you sent them down to us cos everytime they do something clever or funny one of us will say Kane would have loved to see them do that! We i'll have to sign off now lovely boy, grandad's making tea and then we've got to take the pups down the beach. Will speak to you soon love and miss you always and forever xxx nana